Big girl bed

Does anyone have suggestions on how to do this smoothly. We put a mattress on the floor and she was excited at first but when it came to bed time, she was scared. Richard has been laying with her for the past hour on it. Is that what our lives are going to be like now, sleeping with her? This seems like the hardest thing we have had to do with her in a very long time. What do we do if she wakes up? She doesn't know how to open doors yet so I guess that is a plus. Do we just leave her in there to work it out and eventually crash?

Happy Day! I Two!

Happy Birthday Kierra!! Two days late! Guess what we did for her birthday? Nothing! She did have a party at my parents house on Sunday so we aren't the worst parents. Besides, she doesn't know the difference. Here is one highlight.

She did so good trying to blow out her candles. I ran out of memory on the camera and at that point she trying to blow so hard and fast that she looked like she was going to hyperventilate.

Mama and Papa Gee came over on her birthday and brought her a birthday balloon. She was so excited and ever since she has been walking around saying "happy day". Thank you for coming over. I know it meant something to her as it did to me.

Tis the Season for Presents and Puking, fa la la la la

Ah the Christmas Season. Toys, power outages, and family togetherness. Maybe too much family togetherness what with the stomach flu. Mmm, yummy. We had Richard's family over for christmas eve in our newly finished basement. It was actually quite nice and low key. The kids had fun playing and didn't bother us too much so that makes it nice. Christmas we woke up to no power. This has been happening quite frequently lately. I was really disappointed because I wanted pancakes and hot chocolate. Nope, cold cereal. We took Kierra downstairs to open her presents. She wasn't really into it. I think she got bored but once she figured out what they were, she got excited.



Kierra taking George for a walk with her purse and hat (bucket)




The day after Christmas we went over to my parents for the festivities there. Of course my parents spoiled us with grocery money (which we already spent) but Kierra got a laptop. She loves the thing and can actually play the games on it. She calls it her puter.


Kierra just being cute




Sitting with daddy and the puter


That night I started to feel sick, and spent the night pooping and puking. Some of which simultaneously. It was not fun especially when you are pregnant. When you are up all night, so is the baby and she was definitely making herself known.

So, that was our holiday in a nutshell. Richard and Kierra didn't get sick so I am so grateful for that. I hope everyone had a good holiday.

Drats!

So today I broke out my maternity pants. I am not too happy about right now because it just makes me feel more pregnant. I forgot how uncomfortable they were but leaving my jeans unbuttoned was not an option anymore. My zipper kept going down then the pants would go down. I am not sure what I am going to do about church clothes though. I don't remember what I did last time. Maybe I was just extremely uncomfortable for those 3 hours. I do have a maternity dress but it is still way too early for that. My belly button is already starting to poke out too. It actually looks like a gnocchi to me.

New Calling

I hate getting a new calling. Especially when I have been the assistant librarian for 3 years. So they called me to be a sunbeam teacher. There are a ton of people in the ward that don't currently have a calling. I don't know why they wanted me especially with how complicated our lives are. Richard's schedule does change in January making it possible for him to come to church, but it is not guaranteed that it will stay that way for the next quarter. They didn't know that I was having a baby either. So they will release me on Sunday and they are going to give me until January to get Kierra settled in nursery since she won't go by herself. I am not looking forward to doing it so hopefully it will be some sort of blessing in disguise.

The dreaded Bishop's office

So, you get that phone call that a member of the bishopbric wants to see you. I hate the waiting and wondering of what it will be. If I am going in there, I am most likely being released from my current calling. Will I get another one? Or are they going to give me one in addition to the one I have. Kelly, if you are reading this, did you know anything about it?

It's a...Baby

Girl to be exact. We had an ultrasound today and it was confirmed. The baby is good although she measures a week behind. Kierra was the same way so it doesn't worry me. For those that didn't know I was pregnant, sorry. This entry probably explains a lot about my mood and other feelings in previous entries. It is weird being pregnant this time since it is a bit different than it was with Kierra. I am not sick any more which is a nice plus. Dealing with another kid at the same time has made me realize that the uterus is definitely made of steel. Yes, when I was preggo with Kierra, there was a huge amount of heavy labor but I never had someone stepping on it. I am starting to look more like I am fat than pregnant though. I have an upper bulge rather than a lower one. I am hoping that everything goes as well as it did with Kierra and that I don't get huge.

I forgot to add that the due date is April 14th. I also hope that none of you are thinking "that's the last thing that they need is another kid." We are excited and especially to have another girl. Richard doesn't know what to do with a boy. I guess he likes being extremely outnumbered.

Hmm, what do I really like?

Since I have gotten some comments from family members of how grumpy I am, I have been thinking about what I actually like about life. It's been 7 months since I quit my job and so I think I might have lost a bit of myself since then. Here is my attempt to redeem myself.

I like...

Kitties, lots of kitties. Especially petting and cuddling them.

Uninterrupted sleep.

When Kierra gives me hugs and kisses.

When Richard gives me hugs and kisses.

Being snugglie under lots of blankets in the cold.

Quiet.

Being loud with my friends (that doesn't happen that often).

Rollercoasters.

A clean house for 5 minutes.

A good, cheap salad. Lets just say good, cheap food in general.

Getting a good deal.

Accomplishing something.

Getting rewarded for my hard work on something.

Hearing Kierra sing the ABC song perfectly and yelling the last 4 letters. W X Y Z!!!

Successfuly cooking a meal that results in tons of leftovers that Richard will eat.

Yummy smelling candles.

Going to school.

A well rested child.

Going somewhere I have never been and enjoying it.

Sitting by a fire and burning random things. HE HE

Having someone that loves me no matter what, and is sexy too!

I think I will leave it at that for now because it could go on for a very long time.

I'm venting ok!!

This post is for me. IF it offends anyone, keep your mouth shut. In our household we have the terrible two's and the terrible twenty-seven's with Richard on the sidelines. I am at my whits end with Kierra and yes I know that I have a long way to go. How in the crap are you supposed to parent a kid that whines, screams and cries all of the time. She doesn't know what she wants and when she does, it still involves a tantrum. I suck at motherhood. I have zero patience for it and I am afraid the neighbors can hear it. Most of the time I am dissappointed in me rather than her for my actions. I completely understand why she doesn't like me. It's like both of us have become different people within the last month. We are constantly butting heads. Is this what our lives are going to be like forever? Hormones constantly surging. It makes me feel bad when I hear or read about other people's children and how they love everything they do. They are sweethearts. It makes me wonder if it is all because of me. Is my personality and temperment the cause for the constant tension in our house? It makes me feel really bad when she is always asking for her dad too. If he leaves the room, she cries. Is it like that for anyone else? I feel like I am eventually going to lose it. It is causing me to have a hard time to express my love to her when she acts like she hates me. Then I get freaked out to think about how you do this with more than one. Why do we want to do this over again and it's only just begun.

If anyone has any suggestions on how to deal with temper tantrums, advice is welcome. I also don't want this entry to sound like I don't love Kierra. I really do but I am having a really hard time expressing it to her when she is like this. If you suggest therapy, we can't afford it.

Halloweeeeeeeeen

I don't have a whole lot to say about the festivities because there weren't many. Kierra went trick or treating for the first time this year. She also did the trunk or treat, I thought it was pretty gay. We had more fun going from door to door. She didn't get what we were doing at first. The first couple of houses she tried to go inside. She thought we were going there to stay. Here are some pics. She is a turtle by the way.